A Letter To My Heavenly Father

What did I ever do, to receive such goodness in this life?

Dear Heavenly Father,

You have been with me through the times I've failed - in which your mercy remains. I've offended you many times, yet you are ever so faithful to me. I am writing this love letter to you, so that my brothers and sisters in Christ who read this, may fall in love with you a little more.

You allowed me to fall in love with the act of serving. Serving you by being present for your beloved little children. You showed me love in the most visual way ever - seeing adolescence praise their hearts out to you. I have never seen love so visible before, the overflowing and overwhelming love that coursed through the whole room as we praised your name. As I lifted my hands up to you freely for the first time, I realised how it feels like to be in love and F-R-E-E. Tears rolled, not only because of my faults before your perfection, but for the love you give despite receiving constant wounds from my wrongdoing. You truly showed your undying and agape love for me, and us, as we lifted your name up high. I remained in this ministry because I witnessed the love you have for your other little children, be it the service team or the participants. I thought I was filled enough, but you continue to fill my 'already full' heart with more.

I could never have known how it is to love, if not for your saving grace.

I write this in the hope that your beloved children who come across this will realise, perhaps remember, how wonderful the gift of life is, especially if life is lived for the greater glory of your kingdom. I am just one of your many creations, your beautiful creations, yet you still chase after my heart. I write this as thanksgiving for the gift of community - the gift of friends that you have blessed my teeny life with. The people I laugh with after every event, the brothers and sisters I choose to love freely with a sincere heart, and the very souls I pray for every single night.

What is it like to love? I was only able to love with a sincere heart and with the purest of intentions, with your guidance. You have gifted these beautiful souls in my life, because I strongly believe you have given me the right strength and sufficient grace to journey with these fellow children of God. You are truly the God of Armies, for you never forget to equip your soldiers with the right weapon, the weapon of melody. As we sing your name, you bless us with all that we need.

You know I see and feel you most through the people around me. You have sent them into my life, so that I may experience you in the presence of these people. Lord, for this gift I am truly in awe. For the gift of these people in my life, for the times we have gone for fellowship together, for the times we have laughed and enjoyed each others' presence, I fall deeper in love with you. No matter where they are at in their spiritual journey, no matter their language, no matter the silliness that flow through their veins, I understand and love them even more. All because they love you, as I do.

Fellowship truly is important. We receive truths through the sessions we plan for your little kids, we hear what you would want us to listen to, and we share in your Word. Yet, a single fellowship after all that can instantaneously fill the cracks of my heart with your living water. You bless our every conversation, our every games and jokes. We may not mention your Holy name in our conversations, yet I know and truly feel that you are with us in our time of fellowship. As we laugh through the failure of our games, I feel my heart tighten as I love you a little deeper. You knew. You know the very angle to hit my heart with love, which is through sending angels into my life. Lord, you knew. Despite my constant offences, you still give my heart what it needs.

I was broken and shattered before, and I remembered saying, "Lord, take this cup away from me. I want you to take charge of my heart from now on." That was years ago, yet you still feed my heart and soul as and when it needs to be fed, even without me asking. Oh how wonderful it is to be loved, to be loved by the very being of Love. Now with every interaction I have and love I feel for the angels you have blessed me with, I call on to you. I praise you a little louder, lift up your name a little higher, and love you a little deeper.

I truly believe that if one day, all these angels go on in their own journey, I will continue to fall in love with you because of the memories you allowed my heart to retain. Not that I will ever stop receiving your love, but because your little angels will be called on by You to do as You Will in their own individual lives. I understand and I hope when that day comes, I may love them even more as they have loved me. I thank you Lord for the angels you have sent in my life. I will continue to love them as a thanksgiving for your never-ending love for me.

May you always be ever present in my love for my brothers and sisters in Christ, as you are ever present in my life.

How truly wonderful it is, to love and be loved by the greatest Lover of All Time. How priceless, How precious!